Well the 'adults' in my life currently are my parents, Mike, my pdoc, school councelor, and my friend Lizzys mom.

My parents don't believe what I have is an issue, and they're not aware I haven't been going to school. I'm afraid to tell them because they'll get angry at me and my mom drinks so I'm not trying to have her hurt me (physically or mentally).

Mike has been somewhat helpful but is more of a bystander, just listens to my problems never suggests how to help them or offers to help me think of ways to help myself. He isn't proactive just kinda hears what I'm saying, hugs me and tries to make me feel better. Its nice when I'm immediately upset, but when I'm angry/getting panicy i feel like he's smothering me and I just need SOMEONE to help me get what I need. Mike's also the only one who knows I haven't been going to school.

We all are aware my pdoc is terrible.

My school councelor so far is the only one who gets it. He doesn't know I haven't been going to classes but I'm even more afraid to tell him because he works for my school and if I'm not taking any classes I'm not allowed to see him, but he did say if I stopped going there he would still help me but I'd rather just be able to go see him. I really need to go to the disabilities department and be like "is there anyway to take only 1 or 2 classes and still be concidered a fulltime student for insurance sake".

Lizzys mom is hit or miss. Most of the time she tells me "Oh its all in your head I went through everything youre going through, you need to just get off your butt and go walking everyday. youre doing it all to yourself. just Stop youre being rediculous" She thinks she has the answers to everything because she has MS and has been through so much. I'm not saying people with MS have it easy, but she uses her MS like "Oh I'm always hurt, listen to me because clearly I'm worse off then you" in a terribly mean tone/attitude so I don'y really like talking to her about it because one second she'll make me feel like she cares, and then shes like "get over it" which just makes me depressed and upset but I dont tell her that I just kinda sit there and take it. She's kinda on my case about school too but doesnt know that i dont go.



I seriously need help from someone other then who I have now, to guide me along because I've had that type of figure my whole life and now I don't. I'm severely dependent and litterally can't function on my own.

(have to shower will write more after)