I'm alone,and have had panic attacks,depression,and OCD for years. Sometimes it's worse. Sometimes it get's real bad like a black cloud has over shadowed my life. It's like a eclipse,and all good things are gone in these eclipses,and I have no idea what causes these things.

Then no doctors can help me,and my christian brother's,and sister's have given up trying to help me. This was awhile back. Now my Dad,and sister are angry at me,and they don't want to see,or hear from me. They don't understand my condition. I don't understand it either.

I got better for a number of years.

Now I'm back in the Zone. I don't know what's going on,but how do circumstances bring me so low. My anxiety's so bad that I get pain in my chest from the anxiety. It comes,and goes.

Everything that I wanted to be is gone. I wanted to be a scientist,but I dropped out of college in my second year because of anxiety. I was not getting any help from councilors at school. As I think back I don't know why. I've been alone all of my life. I don't feel comfortable around people,but people do like me.

I haven't talked about this on the SOS forum before,so I thought that I'd post it. BF