(((Mistiis))) dear dear lady...I went looking for the description of depression and couldn't find it...I know you'll remember it...depression is a Beast that lurkes in our souls ready to spring at us without provacation....something like that. You're in that battle again...the same one Pter had to fight over and over and now your son is too. As you well know that beast is a formidable foe but you've won this before...granted your circumstances are different now..physical pain is a great leveler. I know you can do this again...you are one of life's heroes and we are all here to help you.

Talking about what you are feeling with people who care (and you know that we do) is the way out of the blackness.