oh my God my heart goes out to you!! I can't believe the loss you are going through!!! I really can't imagine what i'd do if I lost my partner I rely on him for everything!!! oh please don't blame yourself and try to stay as calm as possible(as if) and keep your head cool so the stress does not effect you as much!!!!

you are in my prayers and know you do have friends here who love and will always care for you even if it is in the cyber world!!! hugs hugs hugs

take care my dear
love and hugs,
Victoria