Hi Lauri from Ontario.

I saw your post in BF's thread. I'm so very sorry for the loss of your younger brother to suicide and so very recent. If you feel up to it, don't hesitate to share with the folks here because they are a wonderful group of people. You will find that all NT folks are absolutely the best, very caring and loving.
Again, I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope your anxiety and panic attacks lessen. Much love, prayers and hugs.