I'm feeling your pain Gaz.

My own mom died when I was in my early twenties, and that was followed a few years later by the death of my dad. I then became closer to my grandparents, even though I was no longer a child.

My father's parent's both had died when I was young, but my mom's parents were both still alive when my mother died. I cant even imagine the pain they must have gone through knowing their daughter had passed away while they were still living. My mom was the first person to ascend into Heaven in that family. My grandfather died at 85 and my grandmother passed away when she was 94.

Now days I give all the love to my mother's sister that I would have given to my mother or my grandmother, had either been alive. I love my aunt dearly and she's filled a gap that both those special ladies left in my heart. She is not a substitute though.... she is a special lady in her own light, and I love her dearly. It just means that I have more love to give her now!