I wonder how I am going to let go of today's negative balloon?

I wonder how I can help my little one stop throwing up and I wonder if there is a doctor out there in this little world that will help him.

I wonder if the kid's dad will see that his behaviour hurts his kids too, not just me. And that it shouldn't matter to him anymore about controlling me or punishing me for leaving him 9 years ago.

I wonder about PTSD and if it will ever stop.

I wonder if my mind will ever just shut the explitive up and give my body a rest. I am ok, I am not, I hurt, oh it's a little better, I am scum, no I am not, I am weak,weak, weak......Stupid brain.

I wonder if all of you know how much I care for you and care about you? I do, you know.