Dear Mari
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Originally Posted by Mari
Waves,
Sleep is good.
You can forgive yourself for sleeping in the day.
At some point, you will switch back to night.
Mari
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Thanks Mari. Yes, sleep is good regardless when it happens.
Forgive myself... yes, i'll try. or perhaps try not to
judge myself for it in the first place. Then i wouldn't even have to forgive myself. But it is hard. Either one.
I am having.... "mental health issues"
(as Bizi put it - love it!) and environmental triggers. I am still more depressed than i thought... it is not secondary to anxiety, and have become more anxious again (reactive anxiety). It seems it only takes a kick from someone when i'm starting to feel better to knock me out for the count and KO for several days or weeks, depending.
this is not good. i too want to be well, desperately. there is no one here (physically) who understands what i am up against except my t-pdoc.
i live in a noisy environment and i cannot wear earplugs 24/7 (i wear them often). i hate noise. i am so sensitive to everything. all of that is absent in the night. true, i have to be quiet too, i couldn't sing or anything, but oh well, in the day i don't dare.
and apart from always having been a night owl, the night feels somewhat "safer" for me when i am like this. also more private. i still fought sleep the pattern - with some success, but yesterday was a bad day, so i did not fight sleeping in the day... hence the "set back." sleep is an escape, and i don't need one in the night.
~ waves ~