Thank you so much Koala for your kind words and support - you don't know how much they mean at a time like this and I can't thank you enough

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You really brung a smile and tears to my eyes when you said that my grandfather will love me .... i'm sure that he does no matter what was said and I never thought of it that way.
My dad has just got back in the house and says that they have taken my grandad to the hospital but things aren't looking good, they have got a little heart beat back but that is only through the machines that he is wired up to. I just hope and pray that he will make it, despite all of the things that I said, he was the best grandad you could ever wish for.
I will keep you all updated, my head is a right mess at the moment so i'm sorry if I am rambling.
Thank you so much.
Alison