Ali, it's quite normal to be feeling the way you are at the moment!
Under the circumstances, I doubt that most people would be thinking straight. It's always traumatic to lose some-one close to your heart, and I can well imagine some of the pain that you and your nanan are going through right now.
When you feel up to it, you might like to spend a little time with your nanan to help ease her lonliness, but remember that Alison needs to heal first.
It will be hard Ali and please don't forget that, but at the same time nobody will expect you to be any kind of superwoman.
You take it easy, and remember that we all love you here, and we'll always be here for you should you need to talk.
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