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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: Kansas
Posts: 971
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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: Kansas
Posts: 971
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Joe, I appreciate your upbeat attitude.
Although I was also approved quickly for SSDI, I am struggling with the reality of not being able to be employed.
I am grateful that I received my first SSDI check several days ago, and I am grateful that I am well enough to do some volunteering, and to be able to choose and limit my hours to work around my naps, which I wouldn't be able to do if employed.
But, I don't want to be disabled. I don't want to have MS. I cried when I saw someone at my large extended Thanksgiving reunion who works in a field similar to my previous field, and she asked what I was doing now. She just got a new job, and it was one that I would've enjoyed.
I don't wish to be a downer. Really, again, I want to say that I appreciate your upbeat attitude. I also have a strong faith and a strong support system. i just need to get my head out of my butt. Threads like yours remind me of that. But, I guess I need to allow myself time to grieve, too, and that seems to be the process that I'm currently in.
~ Faith
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aka MamaBug
Symptoms since 01/2002; Dx with MS: 10/2003; Back in limbo, then re-dx w/ MS: 07/2008
Betaseron 11/2003-08/2008; Copaxone 09/2008-present
Began receiving SSDI 11/2008
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