Hi there Hola. I'm sorry that you've feeling overwhelmed at the moment.

May I suggest that you make a post over in the Survivors of Suicide Forum (SOS). This forum is for those who have who have lost a loved one to suicide, for those who have attempted suicide and have survived, and for others who have suicidal thoughts and need to vent, or just need some support.

Here's the link straight into the SOS Forum. Just click the link and start posting. : http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum29.html

You'll find all the members there will be very supportive Hola, remembering of course that everyone is there for a common reason.

Sending you some cyber hugs because it sounds like you could do with them .