(((Nikki))) Your post brought my neighbor to mind...not that she's ever very far from my thoughts. She hasn't responded to my recent emails and it alarms me. She was dreading the coming Thanksgiving...and seeing all the snow only reminds her of her dead son...he loved snowboarding...his friends took his board and nailed it clear up at the top of a fir tree in his memory. I think she "fears" repeating herself to me...her anguish, her pain and her anger. I wish I could see her up close so she'd remember that it's ok to say it over and over and over.
I'm so glad you feel some "easing" in your heart. Please know that I keep you in my prayers.