Jingle,
That's exactly how I feel. I pasted on a smile, even though I am about this far from inpatient treatment, and I didn't say much at my family gathering either. I was just so happy to get home when I saw my apt. building. My family for some reason can't (or won't) understand why I am the way I am, and they think I have a bad attitude when I am just simply struggling to even be around people etc. I am so, so happy Thanksgiving is over. Now, the next hurdle is Christmas. Hopefully, I am doing better by then, because it was h*ll yesterday.