Thank you both, ((alffe)) ((moi))
I can't sleep so of course my brain is working overtime. It dawned on me while reading over these posts what has changed in me......... it's the anger. I have let go of it. Not all of it! but, a great deal.
How can I be mad at him, when I think how greatly he was suffering.. and think of how hard he DID try to hang on for us... breaks my damn heart, but I am not ****** at him anymore. (for now
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