thank you all and nice to see you tritone.
I went again tonight....
there was a young woman there who shared and was crying after she was done sharing...she was jsut crying sitting there I felt so helpless sitting there watching her cry that I leaned over and patted her shoulder...which I know was wrong but could not help myself.
They explained to me that I was interferring in her ability to cry, grieve over an issue...her cousin was involved in an accidental shooting. I learned this later.
one of the other members then scooted over there to give her a hug which I was thankful for.
But to be honest...I was feeling very uncomfortable with her crying...I wanted her to stop crying.
It is hard watching someone suffer, she is a stranger to me. I was trying to control the situation....She is allowed to safely cry in the group with out my interferance.....sigh
After the meeting closed she got all sorts of hugs and support from the others and I never even said anything to her.
I realized that I reacted to my discomfort.
That doesn't make me feel very good.
I am uncomfortable with strong emotions, I feel numb....I try to do the right thing, say the right thing, act how I am supposed to act,
but having feelings...this is foreign to me....
~sigh
bizi
I am going to keep going, they are kind people, I think I can learn alot from them....and not take charge which is my first inclination...
I said no when the leader asked me to participate in something,
out reach stuff.