so im sorry i havent been able to update ive been working rediculously much.

i guess thats good cuz i got paid and im working to pay off my Disney vacation.

I haven't seen my pdoc in a while and I have yet to ask about heath insurance,and i think im starting to develop something.


I asked for early hours (like 7:30-3) but the manager said its not gonna happen....didnt give me a reason...but i found out the reason.

Its because this girl who was hired AFTER me and isnt even trained as much as I am in the pharmacy is getting those hours. The pharmacists complain that the girl doesnt know what shes doing and constantly asks questions and wont even try to find perscriptions. I know more stuff then her and I've been there longer. I can fill perscriptions on the computer, refill them, check if theyre ready, check if theyre sent from the doctor and everything. She CONSTANTLY asks questions to me and the pharmacists and we have other things to do, shes completely reliant on everyone else and it makes me mad because I work my @$$ off and I get terrible hours.


but back to this thing I think im developing.

I've been working later hours (2-10, 4-midnight, 12-8) and closer to the end of my shift (usually with an hour or so until the end of my shift) ill get VERY dizzy and VERY warm and ill turn bright red all over my face and neck/chest. I dont know what it is but the longer im at work into the later hours i start feeling worse and worse.

this whole week ive been working 12-8 and it hasnt been as bad but its still not good and on top of that i usually come home in a TERRIBLE mood i ge so mad over how the whole day has gone and even if the littlest thing goes wrong at work or someone bohers me even a tiny bit i get SOO mad/upset. and i feel terrible because i get out of work and mikes there and i feel like im taking out my anger on him and i feel bad cuz i dont mean to at all its just im so mad and have no way to get it out so i dont even know what to do.


I really want/need those hours not even becase it would be better for me in general but my body is legit telling me hey youre working to late which has never happened to me before.

I dont know I'd prefer to have a job with 'school hours' like 7-4 or something because for years and years and years tthats what my schedule was. i went to school from early until the early afternoon and now im working all sorts of crazy hours and with college being choose your own times, i CHOSE earlier classes. I dont even know.