You are an incredible woman BMW and very brave to share your story with us. You told me bits and pieces in private but I have a much clearer picture now. It's no wonder with all you have been through that you'd want it to end...the physical and emotional pain..and awful memories.

I'm so glad you didn't succeed..your support around here means the world to a lot of us...you offer a lifeline...If you can survive...so can I. You are a perfect example of a survivor. Thank you....

Edit to add a couple of things...did you get any kind of counseling after the initial counseling in the hospital? Do you and your mom talk about "it"?