Dear John (and a hello to Kimmie) ...

I would like to request, please, a forum somewhat like the one Tim described sometime back - a place for venting here, yet a place it would be private and non-disruptive to the normal operating of NT.

OBT has a mod-member dialogue place that I -think- works like this. A member contacts the mods and requests entry to this private forum. They have access to only ONE thread where they can dialogue with mods and reach understandings regarding their questions and confusions.

What I am envisioning would USE this v-bulletin software possibility, but it would be primarily for venting. Like right now, my sister died a week ago, but because of extreme abuse from my family (and my sounding board being away from home for who knows how long), I am in a terrible state of mind where I desperately need to pour out all this. Stuff for which it would be inappropriate to post to any of the forums here - not even grieving & dying. In fact, it would be too emotionally distressing for it to be there.

I figure that if a particular person felt the need for the sense that someone is reading it, we might be able to invite a person or to ask Kimmie for someone to give us a word of support perhaps.

So many of us, the chronically ill and disabled, or the caretakers of the chronically ill and disabled, are lacking anyone in our home or extended environments who we can take these things too. Medicaid does not provide for psychologists or such in the this state. 15-min med checks is it.

I have tried and tried to use blogs - even making those blogs private - but I can't do it. I just feel both too exposed and then, at the same times, too isolated and alone.

I hope you might consider this. You could plunk it down in the mental health section. Sometimes we just need to scream and rage and cry.

Thank you for considering my request.
Teri