Hi Billie,

First, I want to say how sorry I am for your loss. I can't even imagine what it would be like to lose my husband. So, I can't say that I know your grief. My heart goes out to you in finding a way to go on without him.
I lost my Mom five years ago, and I still miss her terribly. Yes, the first year was the worst to get through, as it's always the first birthday, or Thanksgiving or Christmas without them but as time goes on, it does get easier.
You are doing the right thing by talking to God and letting your heart find the way. I will say a special prayer for you.
It sounds like your husband was a very loved and skilled man. I know you were very proud of him. I hope the auction goes really good for you.
Talk about your husband as much as you can. It will help you the more you do. Also, I found that crying also helped, (helps). Whatever makes you feel better is what you should do.
I wish you the best.
Take care,
Linda