Thank you all so much for your kind words and prayers, it means so much more than you will ever know at a time like this .

This week has got to have been one of the worst weeks of my life. On Monday, we went to see my grandad in the Chappel of Rest and that was SO hard, he just looked normal and I thought he was just going to jump up and say he fooled us all but I guess it was wishful thinking unfortunately.

Tuesday was the funeral and that was SO very hard. Even just seeing the coffin on the street made me start crying and when the curtains closed in the crematorium, I just wanted to stand up and say that was my grandad and that they couldn't do that to him.

My RSD is flaring at the moment also, probably from all of the stress and upset and also from some of the additional walking that I have been having to do. I try and go to my nanans every day to keep her company, it's so hard when I don't feel like doing anything but I NEED to do it. My nanans coping pretty well, although you can tell she's so upset, she says she is better when someone is in the house with her as it takes her mind off things.

My leg is rotating out to the side more now, I see my PT's next week hopefully so will see what they say and if they can suggest anything that may help. I've lost 3 and a half lbs in the last week - I need to lose weight but I never wanted to do it this way!!

Thanks again for your kind words, they mean a lot and i'll keep you updated.