I'm so sorry that you are going through all of this right now . I really hope things get better for you soon and I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

I lost my grandad on the 22nd November and it is so hard for all of us. He passed away from Pneumonicosis (sp?) and some type of Pneumonia. It was so hard as one minute he was fine and the next, he was gone. If you ever want someone to talk to, I am here for you - please feel free to drop me a PM as I do understand some of what you are going through .

Take care and know that you are in my thoughts.