Hi Ali
Im sooo sorry to hear about your gramps. Sometimes things seem like it is the end of the world, but it isnt it just feels that way.
I lost my gramps suddenly too, and even though it has been almost 20 years now I still miss him. It was real rough because my gramps died, then one year later my dad died. Life seemed empty for a while there.
The one good thing is I know they are not in any more pain, and that one day we will be reunited. I know they look in on us regularly, and that they are proud of us. You see, they arent really dead, they are more alive than ever.
I sure hope you get to feelin better, and I will keep you and your family in my prayers.