(((Seara))) Go ahead and fill the paperwork out. That is at least 1 thing you have control over at this point. The 1st time I went to our DES office to fill the paperwork out was really hard!!! I just didn't fit in. I had clean clothes on, not designer or dressy, but nice, my make-up and hair was done up well, wore jewelry, etc. I got lots of stares and glares as the only help it appeared I needed was to "stop drinking." LOL Seriously, I was falling all over and didn't have my cane yet.

However, DDs and I really did need the help. After I got approved, I was so relieved and that stress was taken off of me. Then, I was able to focus some on my health. It is OK to accept the help. I know, easy for me to say but I was where you are just a few short years ago - almost exactly 3. I wasn't even diagnosed yet. That came a few months later.

Over time, things will get easier and you have us to help you along the way.