I take full responcibility for my faults, I have been weak and am not functioning right....I don't have normal communication skills and am trying to be honest as I can here in this forum. These are my issues.
That is what we do best, support each other and I appreciate the support that you have shown me.
I think this forum is different then perhaps other forums, we are a small/close bunch and so we get into the nitty gritty as we feel comfortable with each other.
I some ways Mari, I have come to rely on your support as a friend....It has been about 10 years since I first started the boards. That is a long time.
I hope that I don't make you nervous/uncomfortable about me saying that.
You have always been able to be there, I hope that I don't burdon you.
I care about my family here.
In some ways I have more interaction with my on-line family then I do with my other family members. I can be honest here.
But maybe I need to back away and work on my relationships with my family....learn how to be more honest in real life too.
Why does it have to be so hard?
thank you
bizi