This is one subject that I really struggled with. I feel like I have dragged my family down with me. It has been a long hard road to travel.

One day I was letting my wife in on my unspoken feelings, and she tells me that if anyone was gonna leave, they would have already left, and you would do the same for me I know you would.

She was totally right, I would. It took the weight off me some, and as what she said sunk in, it gave me a feeling of security I hadnt felt in a loooong time.

I still know that if I was healthy things would be different, but I dont torture myself with these thoughts anymore because I am secure in the knowledge that im not alone.

I have my family, and I have my NT family. How could I ever go wrong