Hi Waves,

No - I totally got that you weren't trying to make any comparisons. You were very clear. I made the comparison as I've been in what I think is the same place you describe of speaking out as well as sitting and stewing... I was being repetitive I guess and just setting this latest thing apart from my other daily peeves... It seemed significant to make that distinction. I can also see how someone else might read this and think that I am the one being "self-righteous" - but it didn't feel that way to me.

It was very reflex-like And this is interesting because it seems everything I do these days, from getting up to taking my meds to going to work is so calculated and planned. There isn't much "mystery" left in life for me these days. So when I surprise myself and do something unplanned, spontaneous and like a reflex it gives me something to chew on and wonder about. I didn't say impulsive. Maybe it was impulsive. But what I think is reflex. Like breathing. Reflex vs Impulse. Is there such a thing? Maybe I'm splitting hairs now.

Nah, don't worry about hijacking the post. That's what it is here for. Please... breath some life into it!

Urban living... Can you say love hate relationship? I feel lost outside the city. As much as I love the fresh air and space and quiet... I'm just lost. There is no diversity. I feel even less of a chance of talking to someone who'll understand me than I do now. I've said it before, the diversity is the thing I love. I don't feel so weird. Outside the city people tend to be, at least superficially, much less diverse. They are much less exposed to things. My theory (please don't take this as a slight or insult) is that perhaps in the city people are a little closer to reality. At least it is very hard to live in the city and cloak yourself if a particular belief system or point of view and exclude all others.

Perhaps I could say this - I think for me it is going to be one of two extremes:

1 - live in the city with it's ups and downs

2 - live somewhere that is so remote i can be completely free and only deal with who I want to deal with when I want to deal with them.