I'm in the same boat. I wish I wouldn't have been so selfish when i was younger. It was always about me making money and spending it on me. I had fun to be sure and I wouldn't change everything but I should have gotten serious about getting married. Gonna be a long shot now for me too. I am trying to make myself feel better by getting rid of all my debt and saving, saving saving. At least I hope to be able to buy some help when I really need it later. Pretty pathetic.