I found out she passed last month. It is so hard for me to believe because of this idea that I have that only the good die young. She was 87 but still I expected her to go on to around 100. I feel funny but not all that sad that's she's gone. I feel for the ones she left behind and it has made me think of my late ex only passing a year ago. That family is falling apart. I feel compassion for my ex brother-in-laws. It's not them fighting with me but instead the nieces and nehphew. I don't like all this death around me. My mom passed in 2005 and my family dropped me like a hot potato when my ex passed.

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