*sigh...

his name was keith...he was a grade above me.
he sat at the same chair/desk a period ahead of me.

my very best friend at the time and I found his writings one day on the desk...

It stated, "I Keith ***** will kill myself today by shooting myself..."

my friend and I looked at each other and chuckled...yeah, sure, we thought to ourselves...

Keith was very popular, hung out with a popular crowd and was a tall handsome guy and quite a lady's man...

We were probably a bit jealous of him...well, we were....

we didn't know him well, and we thought to ourselves, man, this guy has everything...this is just that he was bored or he just wanted some attention...

I remember we were actually a bit peeved at him...like, what else could he want??

and our math teacher was boring, ya know? So maybe he was just bored so he decided to write those things to pass time...

we scoffed at it even made jokes about it....

the next day...when we walked into the hallway of school, we saw people were crying and holding each other...

I swallowed heavy as did my friend, I am sure of...

we found out that he did kill himself...just like he stated, he shot himself...

I looked at my friend and he looked at me..

the rest of the day was blank...

the desk was not there anymore when we went to class later on that day...

from what I know, his mom refused to talk about it and probably didn't til the day she died...

wished this article was around then, wished we knew what to do back then....

if I can only turn back the clock....

rest in peace, Keith...I am so sorry I didn't say anything....