I wanted to thank all of the people that responded to my post and say how very much it helps. I wish you all the best and hope to make a lot of new friends on here that I can go through this with. I am so sorry for everyone's losses and wish there was some comfort I could give you. I can't even give myself comfort at this point though. I am here for whomever needs me and I hope I can continue to lean on you all. Have a great day everyone!!!!!