Ada, you take time for YOU hon...and you come back when you need someone to talk to, or to cry to, or to laugh with. And if you want to join us on the Topamax Trip, just send your reservation in...we'll be happy to pick you up and try to keep your mind off things. Although, that may not be what you want to do.

34 years is a long, wonderful time. And it's going to be a long time before this gets any easier. You'll never forget...and neither will he. he's watching over you, loving you still. I used to tell my son, "I love you to the moon" and he'd say "and back again" - and I'm sure you and Bill had something similar. Just remember thngs like that...those special things. And those are the things that will carryyou thru.

In the meantime, smell his smell, feel his touch, and listen for the sounds of his laughter in your mind. Those are the things that will tell you he's still there...if not in body, then in mind and soul and spirit....those things are never ending, never dying, and will always keep you company in your grief and loneliness....

{{{ada}}}