Cat, We all struggle with meds and its really tough trying to find the ones that work. Coming to grips with this condition also takes a lot of time so don't be too hard on yourself. It took me a long time to get diagnosed so my situation involved a lot of suffering without any answers or help from meds. Even now, it is still difficult to find doctors who really listen and try to work with me. Find a doctor who will listen and get your meds to a level that you get some relief. Feel free to sound off here too. We all need to. Take care, Ellena