I don't want to push the subject further, but you can't go to one or two N/A meetings and say that you don't like it. Everybody says that they thought it was stupid or that they didn't need it, until they started to go more meetings. I have never heard anything bad about it, so I think you should stick with it for awhile, then decide.

However, I am glad that you decided to change your life, because you are worth it. Nobody deserves an addiction, but those who have one deserve Recovery. It will be hard, especially on your own, but it is worth it