I'm trying to remember that I will eventually start to feel better, this will pass. I think I just enjoyed that two and half years since my last relapse a little too much, got too comfortable.

Thanks for understanding and letting me know that it is okay to be weak and to cry and to be angry.

I'm off work for the next week and a half and I plan on sleeping and taking it easy and trying to get a grip on my emotions.

I do have a lot of good things in my life and I know that I can't let this beat me, no matter how much I just want to succumb to it right now.

Thank God for this place... I mean that... Thank you, God.