I have been in monster pain for 2 years---Seen tons of docs--specialist surgeons etc-----This one thought I could have this surgery on my back to relieve some of the pain I get in my lower back and legs---Appointment today and total disappointment------He says my spine is healthier than his-----He could make it worse that's about it-------------They started with Autoimmune with me---MS------maybe Lupus---Etc----Now the first explanation that comes outta the surgeons mouth looking at my records was MS--------I am so worried that they are just going to let me suffer------I can not even walk the pain is so great--

I just can't see living like this forever-----To some docs----The Pain meds are the worst---Because of addiction----My take is---Hey I was a Cop--In great shape played sports---Ran for miles--Lifted weights etc-----Get me outta pain--or lessen it and the we should worry about addiction------People who don't feel the pain-----And fell what works and doesn't don't care------------Sorry for the long pity poem------To the person in pain for 32 years may God Bless you---I could not do that------

Bless all who posted here..