Thank you so much for this post-I can't tell you how many times I read it. Sometimes this is so tough and it really shatters all of those "life plans" that float in your head. I'm already in with someone to look into the surgery-all I know is I fell asleep without it and woke with it. There were also some strange comments during my block for surgey which lead me to believe that this wasn't entirely a lightening strike. Bless you for your encouragement.