Pono I am sorry that I did not see this sooner .
I am praying for God to comfort you and carry you through the pain and frustration and helplessness you are living with right now. I pray you can find strength and courage to keep taking those little tiny steps one at a time and find courage, and support from all of our words, prayers and thoughts.I am praying and hoping that you keep fighting keep reaching and that you know we care and love you.