I was abandoned by a doc--let to drift 2-3 days I can not remember-------And I use my stuff correctly or so I think------It was 2-3 days with NOTHING and days from HELL---Seconds seemed as years------My heart like a bunny------I was scared as a child----Filled with more pain than one could endure------

If I find myself in that situation again---which I may--Monday-----I will take matters into my hands----I will NOT live week to week---Never knowing what the next script will bring----The Anxiety is really whats taking me down---And it doctor created------They will not treat me like a person-----I spent almost 20 in the Department--And there too treated like a dog because I was injured in the line of Duty---Everything to save a buck------I really can not take this----I will nor lay this on you---Its been 2 years sick---2 years 4 months permanently injured----The most DEHUMINIZING time of my life--------Its just been too long----I am poor--until the retirement-settlement comes in------Animals have gotten better treatment than I----I am just really tired of it and tired of being the burden that I am