My dearest BJ...Please try to keep us informed as often as you can. I am so very sorry you have to go through this. It is going to take a lot of time. We are in this for the long haul. What are you doing to help relieve the pain? Has anyone given you some practical ideas to help you to deal with it? What kind of bed do you sleep on? Do you use pillows? All of these things may seem simple but they can help ease it some, and everybit counts. Please check in again, and help me to get a better picture. Don't let the beast scare you. Fear is what he feeds on. ((((big hugs)))) I hope you can feel them....