this is tough for me. and my weight doesn't make me very happy.
i've had a wt problem all my life since about 9. i'm 59 now.

last yr, or was it the yr before? ... i lost 40 lbs. BP and diabetes much better.
then i gained back 20 and that's pretty much been where i am for a long time.
however, i've kept the 20 off. i go up and down 4-5 lbs like a yo, yo.

i just don't seem very committed.
so i don't know how much i'll participate because i already feel like a failure.
it seems no amount of love, encouragement or knowledge about eating will change my behavior.

i KNOW what to do. i've done it before.
sorry to end on such a note but i just don't feel very positive right now.
what a new year party pooper i am.