Crazy? Well define crazy....
The stuff you are saying is all stuff I have said, in so many words. I saw so many docs that did not a dang thing to help me. If I had seen them on fire, I would not have pee'd on them to put the fire out.
So how can you go through that and not feel a little crazy? It's not a normal situation.
I do not get my hopes up that the next doc IS going to help, but yet, I HAVE to keep going because it still hurts. I have to keep trying.
All of them are not sadists, although a lot of them seem to be. Odds are you have to run itno a decent doc sooner or later, one who can do something for you.
Mine is a pain doc - those are THE only ones in Ohio who will rx any pain meds at all these days. All the docs are so afraid the feds are watching what they rx they won't give you anything.
The only ones who get screwed are people like us.
I really hope you get some help.