My first neuro who dxed me snapped back at me as I moaned "MS? Noooo, I don't want (MS) "Well you knew SOMETHING was wrong with you."
My PCP on the phone when she called after finding out and I cried at her kindness said "You have a right to cry"
I never went back to that Neuro again. Found MS specialist neoro who I like.
Good luck, there are good doctors out there.