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Join Date: Sep 2006
Location: East Tn
Posts: 359
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Member
Join Date: Sep 2006
Location: East Tn
Posts: 359
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I am sorry, but I am not a writer so I have no way of knowing what you mean, I know I have spent 3 days writing even if it hurt so I might get some understanding, and I am close to being blind but I can read it. I could not find the how to guide on writing down painful memories for others to read and maybe give me some insight but if its to hard to read I understand. I just thought of this place as a refuge and did not know about all the rules.. It took all I have to write what I did, I now spend 20 or more hours a day in bed, and I eat between 500-1000 calories a day sometimes less, try to take my meds, but don't always take all my pain meds, so if its too much trouble to read, its ok, I am used to being ignored, and yes, I have been in therapy for years and if you had read what I wrote you would have known it won't ever happen again.There are very few people as sick as I am so I did not know I was creating a hardship when I asked for help, its not something I am used to doing. If I seem angry and hurt its because I am.
Thanks anyway
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Originally Posted by Doody
((Junie)) You have certainly been through a traumatic time, and without fully knowing the details I say...shame on your sisters.
Just please, do not sit by a bottle of pills again and beg your arsehole of a husband to shoot you! That will not do.
It is hard to read posts with no breaks, sorry about bringing this up! When people do that, I find it really difficult to get through.
So forgive me if I didn't catch it, but are you going to counseling with anyone? Is there an agency where you can see a therapist on a sliding fee scale? We have one here that I used for years. When my therapist moved and started her own business though, I went with her. A good and kind therapist is worth the effort.
I wish I had magic words of help, but I wouldn't know what to do with a family that didn't want to help either, especially after all the help you've given out.
I also wish there were a way to get out in your own place and get away from that sorry excuse of a human being that you live with. He isn't worth the space that he takes up on this earth.
Keep talking, and talk to your higher powers and pray like crazy. Baby yourself, take good care of yourself. Maybe an answer will come forth.
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Back injury 1999, PN,DDD, Spinal Stenosis, Arthritis, Chronic pain, Lumbar Fusion 6-06, Pain Worse then Ever Since!10-10-06 Arachnoiditis! CES! now numbness from waist to thighs, bowel, bladder paralysis, self caths, chronic constipation. Left sided weakness! No appetite depression! Bed 22 hrs day!
Under care of PM 3 years. Diabetic, lost over 100 lbs was 300+, now 174 lbs. Normal labs, diet controlled!
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