I had posted this in the Wonder Thread but then I wondered if it really belonged there. I decided not, as it is far from wondrous or wonderful. i decided it belonged here instead. so here are my wonderings:

I wonder how many of you realize how hard it hit me when BrainTalk was down?

I wonder how many of you realize how relieved i felt when BrainTalk came back?

I wonder if others still feel angry, hurt, betrayed, indignant disappointed, or simply unimpressed about the BrainTalk crash.

I wonder if others still feel stunned, confused, paralyzed, shy, by the "forum earthquake" I felt, or if it's all my headjob, projections from my own confusion. and i got plenty o' that to go around. around and around. in my head.

i wonder whether i digress.

I wonder if it is ok for me to say to you, who no longer frequent BrainTalk, that I miss you there, yet I respect and accept your feelings and wishes.

i wonder if a pdoc read this post, if they would have a wretched clue as to "how i am" or "where i'm at" right now. sadly, that was only a rhetorical question.