I know how you feel, I have been stuck so many times and had to have a central line put in twice and both times it went south, first one slipped out of place on its own and my nurses would not believe me until I called my Dr myself and demanded Xrays and sure enough the IV meds were going God knows where and second time it was in my neck and 2 very bad nurses came in to flip me without reading my chart first and yanked it out, plus I was supposed to be flat on my back for 5 days since they cut into my spinal cord and if they had read my chart would have known, so I have terrified whenever I hear needle and not only was I a nurse I was most fearless person alive before all of this