Nikki, this song expresses it all. This is the ONLY way to get through. I can tell you this from my own experience. You can't control it....give it to Him, and let Him get you through. He will, I promise you. Let go...Let God. I know you know how, and can do it. I believe in you Nikki.
About the desire to drive, I have been there too, done it. Please take care of you, let your emotions play themselves out under His tender loving care.