Well, I somehow missed this, maybe while lurking or not lurking.
But thanks COK. I completely understood and so appreciate you putting it out there.
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...death is final no matter the reason.
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You know, often I go into lurking mode here because I often don't feel that I fit in. Most people say here that the pain from a suicide death is much greater than the pain from someone you love dying a 'normal' death. And that a 'sudden loss' is more painful than a long illness. I dunno. When people that I love die, it just hurts is all I know.
Other than the bouts with 'suicidal ideation', the one time I very seriously planned my own suicide, I was in so much emotional pain I wasn't even thinking about anyone else. I just wanted out, no matter what. A revelation, if you will, stopped me out of the blue.