SweetP,

You are not suffering from victim mentality!!!! You have had so many things happen to you in the past year that if I was in the same position as you I would feel like a victim too. I'm sorry to hear about your boyfriend. It takes a special person to understand all that is involved with living and loving a person with MS-but they do exist. As far as your symptoms go-stress, which is what you are going through, definitely makes your symptoms worse.

First, I'm glad you found us, NT is a wonderful place, full of wonderful and supportive people. You are not alone.

Check with you local MS for resources and support. I have always felt that having a friend with MS to share experiences and fears with is so important.

You might want to consider applying for disability. I know it's hard to do, I did it last February. Talk with your neurologist.

I know it's easy for me to say, but try to count your blessings. You may have to look for them first.

I hope I didn't sound preachy. When I read your post I thought to myself- I don't know how I would cope with all that you are going through. Don't be too critical of yourself.

Hang in there!!!

Hugs from Doxie