dear one,
I am so sorry you have such heartwrenchng pain - for those of us who have been through it, it is always hard and no one has the same experience, or
any type of procedure to go by, God however loves, God is love, we need
time alone with God... for God is close to the brokenhearted
perhaps reading this may help abit -
http://www.ronrolheiser.com/columnar...php?rec_id=266